Your love; it's soul captivating <3

30.6.07
My Rock

__15 for 2k!!!! and new PB for 500 which is 4s slower than my target but NO WORRIES God will take me there!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! For taking the pain away and restoring me with strength when I cried out to you. For being the one thing that I hold on to, the One that I set my eyes upon, the One that motivates me to put in the extra strength for an extended burst because I know that whatever I give up for You, You will bless me with much more. You are my eternal source of strength!
THANK YOU! :)

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29.6.07

HEYHEY!!
Whew just did some damage control in my gmail inbox, it's got a life of its own! Take a look at the number of unread mails:

500! Sounds almost Spartan (eh? Link?), Pro not? ;)

Anyhoo, HALLELUJAH THANK GOD IT'S OVERRRR!! I think this CTs went ok, not fantastic like I-confirm-do-a-Jolene fantastic but yeah..slightly better lah. THOUGH one thing's for sure, I will maintain my consistent performance for Math. Go figure. (>.<) Still, I took some major risks and spotted questions like crazy SO THANK YOU FOR BRINGING ME THRU and blessing me with a discerning eye! :) Haha now I got a splitting headache. Think my brain's dehydrated. All the vomitting of brain juices &c.

TRAINING TOMORROW!!! I dint get to see Gideon Jnr today :C Will give it a big XO tmr :)

ET=madness please,

Yang: WHY MUST YOU CHOOSE WHICH BAN MIAN TO EAT? It's not like the ban mian is fighting to be eaten right?
Me: >_____< *picks at a strand, then moves over to the other side of the bowl*
Yang: ...And she just picked up... BILLY! (Actually I don't think I was the one who said 'Billy', might've been Joo?)
Me: *thinks of the fat&lazy boat-maker Billy and goes O_O* RAWRRRRRR DIEEEEEEE BILLY!!!!!! *shoves the ban mian into mouth*

Got more in her blog, I lazy :D Mannn this past june hols has been crazymuggingtrainingmuggingcrazy, but I'm glad we'd managed to retain our humour :) My PoP Personal Best is this:

On Friday, Javine went a little crazy and did pushups, so we all joined in. Yang watched Javine do pushups, Shawna planking and me doing V-snaps with her and when she heard that Jo was running at the track too, she said, "ACES day! All Canoeists Exercising Simultaneously!"

Haha but seriously it was quite funny! Almost as funny as this other episode:
Was telling canoe cell that my tutor commented on Muddy's low and manly voice,

Elisa, very 不服气, "My voice also very low what.."
Me and Jave, simultaneously, "Yah right.. RAINBOW RAINBOW!!" (Looks at each
other, laughs and high-fives)

Haha OK I think it's time I go to bed. This entry is like how jumpy.. Talking on msn at the same time, 's why :P

Oh wait I should do tag replies first:
@soo: THANKS Q.M. Jnr!! :) Ahh don't worry, soon ur K4 will be so imba I'll be rowing at least 10 buoys behind you :D
@bern: Haha black BLUR. Ok sorry I shouldn't be mean.
@et: Yeah we have to set it up k?????
@shawna: Right back atcha babe! :)
@cheR: CHERRRRRR Haha I'll try my best lah, let's see what He decides to bless me with on my birthday! Anyhoo, are you free anytime soon?? Pls say yes.. :)
@hk 10 yrs on: Uh riiight, ok!

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23.6.07
Everything on the Line

__16!!!!!
I remember last trng I said this to Ray, "It's gonna take another miracle for me to achieve another PB, I seriously dunno how I'm going to top this.." And then today happened :) Throughout the whole 2K row I was just singing ("Lord I thank You/For Your sacrifice/Yes Lord I thank You/You're the giver of my life/The lover of my soul/And I just want to honour You" --I think it's a New Creation Church song, and I may have gotten the lyrics jumbled up but yeah these are the lines I repeated to myself) and pushing to sustain a 90% maintenance but not giving myself any pressure 'cause I'd thought I'd be happy with a 20-something. Then Gideon Jnr and I approached the 250m and the adrenaline kicked in and I was off, riding and cutting thru the waves, happy and free, taking a lift from God :) So, YES LORD I DO BELIEVE IN MIRACLES, I DO I DO!! <3!!

And I will trust in Your perfect timing, in everythingYou have planned for me :)

I think the goal has to be meaningful to you, in order to truly dedicate yourself to it. I also think you have to have some fun along the way to make up for the times when it's not enjoyable, the times when you've had only five hours' sleep and it's five in the morning and you wake up with a headache and it's cold and rainy out and you have to go out anyway and just push through. You have to get enjoyment out of being in shape, of competing at your best level of performance, and in the training itself. Some days you know you're having a great workout, your paddle is flowing through the water just right and your technique feels like it's right on, and the boat is moving fast. It's like being on top of the world.

Greg Barton The Barton Mold

And the goddess Nike saith,

All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you're not good enough or strong enough or talented enough; they will say you're the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to play this or be this or achieve this. They will tell you no, a thousand times no, until all the no's become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly and very quickly. And you will tell them yes.

:) It's been a while since Jiaolian's said to me, "再快就可以飞起来了" (Any faster and you can take off). I really treasure that, kept grinning into space today :D But he had to make it a bit (-.-) by saying "哎呀，省了吧，除非你参加国家队" when I asked him how I can continue rowing after Nats. I'm sure lah! 1)I don't think I can cut it and 2)I'm not a citizen.. Ah well, we WILL set up a RJC ALUMNI! RIGHT??

CTs in less than 40hours! No trng for close to a week! ggX____X please. I'll watch videos everyday so I won't forget how to row.. But I'm glad for the break, my left lats is in very bad shape, it's painful even if I'm just lying down. Pray for me? :)

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20.6.07
神的孩子都在跳舞

只因我为爱而生
只因为我为爱而生
我来到这个世界
这个人生为你而生存

只因我为爱而生
因为我为爱而生
就让我越爱越疯
越陷越深越执著的灵魂

为爱而生五月天

Today is Chinese Wednesday-- hence the lyrics above! Let's see how much of it you can still read.. X) Anyhoo, It was also Canoe Cell Wednesday! :) I think the lyrics very appropriate for us, we love because He first loved us!

:) PB-ed TWICE THIS WEEK ZOMYGOODNESS First __28 on Monday, then __18 today for 2k! That's 12s off the target I'd set for myself and 23s off my last PB! YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY Haha I never thought that this could happen! Madness I tell you. Kept having to check with JiaoLian that it wasn't a problem with his stopwatch :D Daren't even dream of this kind of timing before..

THANK YOU GOD for the lift!! Sure felt good flying with You through the waters :) Thank You sooo much for blessing me so unexpectedly. I didn't think my prayer will be answered so quickly! Thank You for blessing her too! And yes, as Hannah said, we will trust in Your perfect timing :)

Mann I feel like I can take on the world at this point in time :D Heyhey this is proof that size really doesn't matter right? I may be vertically challenged but on God's shoulder's I'm taller than anyone else in the world! Yeah!

Aiight I will conquer Math, E Lit and C Lit too! :)

On the bus home, as I recalled the image of you tearing when we sang You Alone, I felt my heart seize. I think you're really strong to be able to keep your chin up even while shouldering these other burdens you didn't have to take on if you chose not to.. Stay strong girl! Everything's gonna be all-right in the end :)

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17.6.07
But believe and you will see
That there's no reason to doubt

Admist all the heavy hearted mugging and hardcore training, I bring to you.. a video post! Watch the first 2 to have a good laugh, and save the last for a good cathartic cry.

Watch out for Dalma Benedek from Hungary! She's superduper cool!:) (comes on at 2.52) So is Natasa Janics actually, tho she's a tad more emotional.. but still very pretty! And Hannah should love her cos she seems to like pink a lot. :D

Project 110 has been going rather smoothly-- I had a good timetrial on Sat and unexpected revelations on how to improve my efficiency :) Thank You! Like I said, this past week or so training has been more about strengthening mental resilience for me.. Been conditioning myself to get use to those make or break moments in a race-- like when all of you are neck-to-neck, do you decide to drop out from the real race? Or do you hold out? Needless to say, only the latter option yields positive results.

..Actually, I believe it's in all of us, the strength and endurance it takes to be the last one standing, the ability to bring glory to God. It's just whether you decide to trust in your Unfailing Back-up that makes the difference :)

Lyrics provided by LyricsMode

OHOH! I now know how a muffin sounds like. Some imagination you have, Ray! Tho I might agree if it was a squishy muffin, like you know, those that ooze chocolate when you squeeze them. (>.<)

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14.6.07
Escapade

Yayy second escapade to Orchard in a week, no make that a month, oh wait how about a YEAR? Haha! Kudos to my run-away partners Van and Jave! <3
What I've learnt:
1 Takes about 45 mins to run from RJ to Orchard Far East-- that's only 20mins more than a bus ride down!
2 You can survive in Singapore with just a EZ link card-- especially if you don't mind having Evil Macs for breakfast, lunch and dinner everyday!

YAYY:)

"Reflection is key to ~~Confucius-esque thinking~~ vanity."

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10.6.07

I'm still having trouble with the Cymbeline poster. Am absolutely sick to death with having to revise it over and over again and still not capture what it should be about. We just don't click for some reason. Short of reading the entire play myself, I dun think I'd really understand what it's all about, but where do I find the time? All the other posters are fine and pretty well received but this one.. Sigh. I guess I'd just have to force my way thru somehow.. (crosses fingers) In the meanwhile, there goes my plans to finish revising my 唐诗s and 宋词s.

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8.6.07
He's Already Finished Strong

Had it down in my schedule to do Dr Faustus yesterday and today but no notes to study from. I wish everyone could be a little more helpful when it comes to this kinda stuff, like sharing notes and all. You've prepared it already so why not share it? And it's not like it's a one-way contribution.. Sigh.

Oh well. So I basically spent this 2 days wrestling with Application of Differentiation. It's the one topic I really can't stand, losing only by a minor margin to Integration. Rahh.
And I caught up with sleep. And watched the entire My Girl series. GGXX after 16hours of Korean drama my head is filled with all kinds of fluff no wonder I couldn't do math.. And I'm incoherent to boot. Oh joy.

I declare today Haiku Friday:
I really hate math
As much as I hate smokers
They both stink like crap.
Wonder if I can submit that for the poem comp Mr P is forcibly excouraging us to take part in? Hmm. Bet I can achieve "immortality" status. It will be the anthem of lost youths :D

ANYWAY, training tomorrow :) Onward with project 110! I have no fear and nothing to lose! :)

Clear the way for
One who is worthy
One who is worthy of
All my praise, He's
Already finished
Already finished strong
I have seen the way this story's going to end
I have seen who's already won

The last one standing wants it more
Finding there's something worth fighting for
We're gonna be the last ones standing here
Last One Standing MercyMe

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4.6.07
Flowers in the Window

Yayy today's rows were the perfect kick-start to Project 110 :) Everything was just marvy, the hard rows, the bursts and sneaky k1s giving me a run for my money :} Was so superduperly pumped up I was ready to take on more killer land sets after water, so imagine my ~~disappointment~~surprise when Muddy told us we were going to have a 'team massage' session instead :D

Well everything was fine other than Jo being a horny monkey (>.<) Seriously, I never knew that ape can think so dirrty.. am horrendously traumatised. "Later too exciting and sweaty the patch wont stick." FAINTS. I do not need to know the intimate details to what you've got planned in the way of family planning OK??? Tut tut tut. Let's try a bit of decency now and then shall we? This way maybe only the whole earth's population less one will know about your brown underwear with pink rabbits. (-.-)

Anyways I deserve a pat on my back! Not just because I managed to not feed Jo to the Phantom Crocodile of Macritchie, but because.. I AM STILL AWAKE! And I intend to stay that way until I finish my Complex Numbers revision exercise and revisit Market Structure. >:)

There is no reason to feel bad
But there are many seasons to feel glad, sad, mad
It's just a bunch of feelings that we have to hold
But I am here to help you with the load

.. I think I'm developing a complex from doing Complex -- inferiority complex. ggX___X.

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2.6.07
Goodbye, halcyon days.

Busy week,
revised:
Math -- Poisson, Normal
Chinese Lit-- One short story
MicroEcons -- Theory of the firm
Eng Lit -- THT and 1984 (In progress)
..outstanding work: One Chinese short story.
I'd even managed to squeeze in mummy's birthday dinner yesterday! :) Happy Birthday Mummy! I really thank God for you. You are the strongest woman I know, overcoming your operation and diabetes the way you did.. Mann.. I need look no further for inspiration daily! I'm sorry for all the times I was unreasonable, all the times I've let you down, all the times we've argued over my future.. I don't know how you do it, forgiving me like you always do :) Here's to many more years of love and health!

..So, yep busy week, it's basically train, bathe, eat, study (no more naps on weekdays!), light evening training on some days, trudge home, bathe, eat, study, sleep EVERYDAY! But we'll pull through on the strength and endurance and wisdom that He blesses us with, and we'll crush some dreams. ;) I like that.

Anyhoo,
For a moment as I rowed today, I imagined myself above the water, above it all, riding on His shoulders. It was.. uplifting :) Thank You.

I will not be afraid
I will not be dismayed
I am not alone
Your rod and staff they comfort me

Of course it's to be expected. Everyone wants the gold, so at this point, it doesn't really matter if you want it anymore than anyone else. Everyone's putting in that extra bit of effort for the last burst. We are all equal as of now. So.. What will take us the extra mile?

Faith. I will not forget how it's like to row purely for You. To have no fear. And in the days to come that will be something I'll have to draw on constantly. Nobody said it'll be easy. I've given my heart and soul for the past 2 years --even my mum acknowledges this and is finally showing me her support, I WILL NOT let any lapses of faith screw up this last leg. Because I am a coward at heart. I am afraid, terribly afraid. I know I can't face up to that feeling of regret that is sure to come if I don't go all out.

I cannot be defeated
I cannot be destroyed
I am not alone.

I'm really grateful for how caring Jiaolian can be sometimes. He told me he only expects my 80% today because I'm still coughing (but of course I forget that from time to time). Come monday, it's Goodbye, halcyon days :)

And this is a promise, Yang, 110 on all fronts. I'd expect nothing less. At the same time, be very alert, be ready to catch yourself out if you feel yourself sinking. Remember what it's like to ride on His shoulders.

Godspeed.

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Et toutes mes peines

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Trouveront l'oubli

Quand je trouverais l'amour

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